Sunday, January 13, 2013

12 weeks

12 weeks- 
due july 22nd 2013
 11 weeks
i recently switched drs and offices so for my first appt there, they do first appt ultrasounds...so i got to have another ultrasound. i was so excited. it was so fun to see the baby again!
 8 weeks
my now -old- dr sends there patients for a due date ultrasound. so this was our first ultrasound.
there was nothing quite like seeing that little 8 week developing baby with a heart beat at that first ultrasound. as i thought i was pregnant, but would not be sure until i heard the heartbeat or saw the baby on the ultrasound.

this news and this pregnancy brings a whole set of new emotions and a whole new appreciation for life and for the heartbeat that God gives. he is the giver of life. this baby is really baby number three to me and chad, as we miscarried over the summer. one of the hardest things ive ever gone through. but God was and is faithful. he carried me through it. and he chose to bless us with another baby. (that looks so cute in those ultrasound pictures.) 

psalm 54:4 has been one of the biggest helps to me..."Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me." God was my help and God was the one who sustained me through that hard time. and now here i am months later, pregnant! and i am due in the same month that i found out i was miscarrying with baby number 2. God is faithful. Isaiah 61 "The spirit of the sovereign Lord is on me...to comfort all who mourn and provide for those who grieve in Zion-to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor." 

we will not always understand why certain things happen in life. but it is our job to trust that God knows best. during the hard times you might not always be where you know you need to be... spirituality or in your mind or thoughts. but God is always there. and once you are out of the depths of it...to be able to look back and see Gods hand. i know that my shield of faith slipped alot over the summer...but God held me close. he never let me get to the point where i was defeated or where i slipped too far. he was there and has brought me through it.

this post wasnt supposed to be sad. just not wanting to forget where i was. and where God has brought me. and this new appreciation of this healthy pregnancy.

we are excited for july 2013! :)

3 comments:

Sarah said...

Oh, Mel!!!! So excited for you! The LORD truly is the Giver life. We are so sorry to hear about your loss this summer, but are thrilled for the little life that the Lord has so graciously blessed you with again! Hugs...praying!

ajnrileysmommy said...

Love this so much!!! I got emotional all over again reading this and remembering the pain you have gone through. So grateful you chose to stay close to God and that he is blessing you with another baby!!!! Xoxo

mel said...

Thank you so much Sarah!!!! And thank you too shell! :) xoxo